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( my sad attempt to escape reality for a few mins... )

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[	music	|	unseen-false hope	]

today, weather-wise, sucked... it was grey and raining the whole day... not really feelin summer very much right now. buuuut i ended up watching secret window and starsky and hutch with teddy.. which were both greaaaaat movies. even tho i had never seen any old episode starsky and hutch, im pretty sure i got a good feel for what was going on and i really liked it. its one of those movies u can completly zone out for about 15mins straight for and start watching it again and stillllll have a good idea as to whats goin on. ben stiller was starsky and he was hilaaaarious as always, and ofcourse he was wearing tight clothes throught the whole movie (i mean.. c'mon its ben stiller, what else would a lil short man like him be wearin?), but unlike dodgeball that i saw the other night, the movie had a surprisingly good plot and involved some new kind of coke hmmm interesting, wonder if anyone will actually ever come out with some shit like that.. ::scratches imaginary goatee:: thennnn we proceeded to watch secret window (actually i think we watched secret window THEN starsky and hutch..) with none other than johnny depp (insert johnny depp obsession rant here), although his hair looked rather werid.. yea, i was a lil surprised by it, im not really sure what they were thinking when they had him grow it long and die it that brownish orange color, kind of reminds me of a hair dying job gone bad. anywayyyys i wont say much about it bc pretty much any little detail i mention will end up with me giving away the whole twist at the end, see there i go.. already you know that it ends with some unexpected twist. overallllll i had a good time seein teddy i havent seen him in a while, some good times were shared including driving aboot cohasset and weymouth in search of papa g's dipping sauce... im kinda looking forward to another relaxing rainy day fit perfect for some good ol' movie watchin :P

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[	music	|	float on -modest mouse	]

Take your username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc...).
steph:
s= 19
t= 20
e= 5
p= 16
h= 8

2. Add all of the numbers together to create a kind of super number.
68

3. Make a note of the first digit of this number, then add the digits of the number together.
6+8=14

4. Find the post of this number in your journal. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again. Keep doing so until the number is smaller than your pathetic number of posts.


5. Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.
am

6. Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and select a picture from the first page.



hahahaha that made me laugh...


( -->another survey..<-- )

[	mood	|	anxious	]
[	music	|	YATTA -happatai	]

holy sweet drunken ninja jesus today's mine and teddys one month!!

[	mood	|	calm	]
[	music	|	john lennon	]

Love is real
Real is love

Love is feeling
Feeling love

Love is wanting
To be loved

Love is touch
Touch is love

Love is reaching
Reaching love

Love is asking
To be loved

Love is you
You and me

Love is knowing
We can be

Love is free
Free is love

Love is living
Living love

Love is needing
To be loved.

and how else could i end an entry like this, one that explains so much about my feelings, without including a picture of the person this whooooole entry is directed towards...



now there are two beauuuuuuuuutiful people =0
and teddy (the one sporting the thursday shirt) is not to be confused with ted ::stomps foot::

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[	music	|	dead kennedys	]

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY : )

not really in the mood to type out some long and involved entry or anything like that. yesterday i worked from 3-7pm and watched everyone getting ready with their families for the weymouth fireworks(little girls holding onto mommys arm and young boys grabbing onto daddys leg getting praised for ordering their own donut), bf's with their arms wrapped around their gfs looking as happy and proud as can be, and groups of teenage girls laughing at nothing and falling all over eachother -dressed to impress any guys they might just happen to run into during the fireworks. i actually enjoyed watching all the different groups of people that rushed in. last night i went to teddys (who left for new york today and wont be home until wed/thurs... im a sad panda<--kind of came off sounding somewhat sarcastic, but isnt in any way shape or form..) w/james and leen and this morning i worked from 5am-1230, and once again, watched millions of people pour into dunkin donuts sporting their Fourth of July attire : P

Hold my hand
Make me warm
Tell me I am loved
Give me hope
Let me cry
Make me feel
Give me touch

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so for all you people who for some reason werent aware of it, tonight were the fireworks.. accompanied by, ofcourse, a dery (yes, thats a word) oldies band who felt the need to wish 9 and 10yr olds happy birthday all night long. the fireworks display? eh.. not all that impressive, although i didnt really pay close attention to them, but the ones i did were happen to see were the same old thing i see every year -which consist mainly of big green and red circle fireworks (i enjoy watching the guys on the island with their flares more than the actual fireworks). aaaaaaaand i almost forgot to mention... take a deep breath.. this ones a shocker.. ted got his hair cut, can u BELIEVE it.. he looks soooo incredibly different, a turn for the better in the appearance catagory i think, not saying he wasnt attractive or anything before, lol. yea.. thats all i have the energy to type out right now, ill add more later if im bored..

For a minute there...
I lost myself.. I lost myself
Phew for a minute there,
I lost myself.. I lost myself